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Wednesday, December 29, 2010
semester break sucks! 10:15 PM

Hey guys. I think I am gonna stop blogging in Blogger for good . I rarely update here and more to Tumblr-ing but not really as a blog just looking around for words of wisdom or maybe finding a piece of art that calls out to me.. But nevertheless I would not simply delete this blog . I'll just let it be ..

So , new year is coming soon . 2011. ahh . I never really looked forward to any of celebrations because I'll be alone most of the time. Physically . But Electronically , I do text or call my friends to wish them . Its pathetic really. . you guys understands right? *sigh*

Now I'm gonna conclude my 2010 which only involve me and my one month holiday.

First week :
I go in and out of hospital helping my mum take care of my dad . Though I was only sitting and accompany my dad while my mum went home and freshen up. I did mentioned that my dad was diagnosed with pneumonia right after he finished all his Haji .. right? well , nothing much that first week . except for the fact that I kept doozing off every few minutes due to extreme tiredness. I went to this lady , who happens to be a good massager told me I have a weak heart and get tired easily. Amazingly all her description on my condition was surprisingly accurate.. But I guess I'll let that one info sleep in my mind.

Second week:
after some tiring week of going in and out of hospital . I took on another career path . TOUR GUIDE. This kind of family friend//relative came to visit my dad because all of them are worried about his current condition at that time. Only one person came. Representative i guess?
Hurm . So I took him all the way from Lok Kawi to Likas. He's driving the huge Dmax because dad wont let me drive. So . . . yeah . All I did was showing him another side of KK rather than the malls. Because I kept bringing him to places where he can take good pictures of the city . I should upload the pictures but I guess Im lazy to wait the uploading to finish.

third week:
After the so called relative left Sabah , all I did was ... TOTALLY BORED IN THE HOUSE.
I was stuck in a rut , Wake up. bath. wash clothes. watch tv. clean up the house. and repeat.

Fourth week
technically I am still in my last week of holiday . Christmas has passed and I didn't do anything. I got yelled by my dad which made me decide not to bother anything about him ever again . But then I reconsider, He might die anytime when I am far away from home. So I kept up the goody good two shoes act but I cant help it. I cant fake a smile to someone as him . I am sorry GOD . But I guess my heart is slowly turning into a stone .. That yelling cause me to fall back into depression. so I was kind of full with thoughts over these few days. I couldn't taste my food properly, I can't sleep without totally tiring myself. Totally in despair as if life just not worth the ride anymore. . . See, that's real depression. *cries*

Ok . enough of sappiness.

I still have few more days to bare here. Need new passport picture, buy stuff for the new coming semester. Meet girlfriends before leaving. Hopefully.

the next post would be my last. .
Adieu ~