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Friday, September 10, 2010
First Day Raya 11:42 PM

Holla people! How was your first day of Raya? Was it any fun ? I hope so . :) Because I am wishing that someone out there is having more fun than me . For the first time since AGES of no rantings about my feelings... Here is my first day of raya celebration goes ..


Wake up early . Helped mum prepare foods. Met with Grandma. Went to the Graveyard. bla bla bla. Usual stuff . My dad's younger brother was the first to come over and brought his family . The other relatives were at Grandma's house next door. You can just hear all the fireworks, laughters and all sorts of noises from my Grandma's house. This is my typical average First Day celebration . Every year its the same all ruts.

What I am pissed off here is that .. the whole family excluding my family and my uncle's family who were sitting talking in the living room weren't invited to take the BOG family photo! WTF man?? Geez , have a heart would ya? I mean you can just shout form Grandma's house and call us over. Instead they leave us out . Yeah . I was sulking and pretty upset with that. Isolated . Isolation. URGH . Yes I am angry, FURIOUS at that.

Whatever .. so after that all of them went to my house as my uncle went home. Yeah, they were so many of them, the house could not fit them all . So I tried talking to some of my cousins or whatever their "pangkat" is to me. But none of them were nice enough. Everyone was talking to each other. Kids were running around the house. The elders were talking among themselves. The teenagers mingled around. And there's me, just sitting around in the crowd.. Trying to see if anyone would care to have a chat with me. Blegh . I don't hate crowds. Sometimes it makes me nervous if I can;t find someone to talk to and end up hyperventilating all of a sudden .

So my savior for the day was Rie . I thank God from the bottom of my heart that he came with ziezie, his sister.. They actually made my day a little less suffocating. Uncle Juti also came. He is a friend of my dad's. A regular visitor on the first day of raya . hehe . He gave me a little green box as a present. Its a handy box , might be useful in the future. He even played guitar for me. He was in a band in his younger days. I might just ask him to teach me to play , the next time he come to visit. SOON please . :P

So Rie and Zie2 came and stayed until one o'clock. I had fun having them as my guests. Talking craps, eating .. Thanx for coming guys! Sayang kamu sebab datang. hehe :)

At night, just few hours ago. I went to my dad's elder sisters' houses at Putatan. Wanted to take pictures of my little nieces and nephews. They are adorable and dangerous I might say . Haha. Seeing all the little children playing and just make the effort of spending time with you was unforgettable. I love my nieces and nephews, they are all very talented not to mention, smart and extroverts. hehe . Brings smile to my face.

That's all . BTW, have you guys seen my boyfriend anywhere?? The texts I sent wasn't delivered the whole day . He didn't even text me . URGH . I'm sad now. not just because he didn't text me or even bother to tell me anything. He is at camp, so I presumed that he would be busy . I am sad because I think I just lost any traces of self-confidence in my self in interacting with my cousins. I feel left out, isolated . . yada yada yada.

I am in emo mood now. Ignore.

Ok, tomorrow I will be going back to Beaufort and maybe stay overnight . I wonder if my dad lets me drive tomorrow. haha. Usually I drive halfway to Beaufort and another halfway back to KK .

Aites people. I wanna sleep now because I need to get up early in the morning.

Happy Hari Raya !!