Nee. Wraye . Once again I write to you . Once again I need your help, your guide.
Wraye.. I hurt him again . This time I hurt him bad. I mean really . I can't stop crying over it but even though I cried so hard. Its him who's feeling the greater grief.
"I don't know . I don't know. I don't know. "
I keep repeating the same word over and over. I have no Idea why I keep repeating that.
Maybe its true. I don't know anything . I don't know how to love someone. I don't know how to treat him nicely . I keep giving him pain . PAIN !
Im lost at words to explain this feeling . see?? Im totally out . HELP ! HELP
ARGHHHHHHHHH .. mattaku . I really cant describe anything . All I know now is my heart is beating fast. Its aching . I can hear a crack somewhere. and my brain is overloaded with question I thought I have the answers for it . ouh please Wraye.
I know it sounds over exaggerating. But that's how I feel...
"i won't cry over guys" I said it before. i said that when I realized how foolish I am too cry over something so useless. Longing for something that has not even notice my existent . Its useless.
and now he said the exact same words.
am i useless to him ? am i ? His voice over the phone was ..... enough to make my heart stop a beat.
mattakuuu ..
Labels: i need help on this relationship